Every rejection letter has a silver lining. Earlier this week I received the dreaded email - the one saying the company you’ve spent hours applying for, has ‘reluctantly’ decided not to proceed with your application. Of course, my heart sank when I read those words. I’d spent hours, days, researching the firm and how to do my very best during the previous day’s phone interview. That’s not to mention my science degree and business masters I’m currently studying for. But alas it appears that this, along with all my other credentials and experience, was not enough for a Big 4 firm. Sod ‘em.
While my heart sank, my mind dove in behind it. This was my chance. This was what I had hoped for. I just didn’t know it. I’ve always been fairly academic, with a freak passion for photography. That’s why I was going for these corporate jobs; the kind where I could put these learned skills to good use. I was applying for Risk Assurance for goodness sake! It seems now thats not the path I’ll be following, and I couldn’t be happier. I wasn’t looking forward to possibly hanging up my camera for months at a time!
There, I said it. I know I share this dream with so many awesome people, but I finally feel comfortable, and confident, with the decision. All I’ve ever wanted to do was see the world, and I feel I’m finally ready to give it my all to make it happen. I’m not saying I won’t apply for jobs where I can make my masters work for me, but I’m done with the idea of being a cog in a machine of 180,000 parts, all turning in order to generate profit.
Life is for living. I’d much rather be richer in terms of what I’ve seen, what I’ve done and who I’ve met...than in terms of how thick my wallet is. I recently found the best/worst video I could have imagined, where it asked ‘what if money didn’t matter’? For me there was no doubt. I highly recommend you watch it, although it will probably call into question everything you’ve ever decided.
If you’re waiting for that silver lining (call it ‘excuse’) to ditch what you think you ‘should’ do, and do what you want to do, perhaps this is it! If you’ve already tendered that spark into a fully-fledged creative professional fire, I’d love to hear what it was! Leave a comment below. I’m so happy with this decision, even though I have absolutely no clue which way to turn or how to get there. All I know is, I can’t wait to start the journey!